So I'm Getting A Divorce
|I had to go back to 2011 just to find a picture of us together.|
When I posted this picture last week someone commented "Something must be off, you're breaking to many rods." They were right, something was off in a big way. My marriage is the one thing that I always thought I had going for me. We weren't perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but it worked. Since finding out about the divorce I have had more than a few broken rods. Many things appear to have broken in different areas of my life. Some I can fix (like my eating habits and smoking) some I can't fix (like my marriage and lost time).
I've ran into a bit of a confidence problem lately. From raising my kids, to dealing with the split, to simple things like choosing which shirt to wear to work. I'm constantly second guessing myself and the confusion is screwing with my fishing. My friends have noticed something's wrong too. Lately I've been getting more random phone calls, emails, and fishing invites than ever before. I've spent so much time on the water recently that I have blisters from my sandals and line burn from stripping flies. It's working, I'm finally starting to feel better. Kind of funny how something as simple as fishing can make such a big difference.
|My whole world...|
It means you're stuck with me. I'm turning more attention to my long term goals. I still don't have a paddle sponsor, I haven't caught a mako shark, or been to Thailand, and my name doesn't appear anywhere in the IGFA record book. Hell it's been almost 4 years and I haven't reached my goal of 10,000 weekly readers on these pages (only 6,000 short). That goal has my full attention now. The blog will have 3 posts a week from here on out. Two will be written on Monday and Friday. The 3rd will be the show notes and audio file from my Podcast every Wednesday. The site is getting a redesign in the next few months and I'm already on chapter 3 of the first E-book. Big things are coming down the pipeline now that my focus is clearing up. I've got a few dreams left to chase down and these pages will be coming along for the ride.